Saturday night someone was holding Audrey and when I went to get her she reached out for me. At the time I thought it was just by chance, but yesterday Mark had her and she did it to me, so we tested it and she reached out again. I could have melted…my sweet baby girl wanting to get me. Just a little more love and goodness.
Monthly Archives: August 2010
today started off with this great morning weather outside. cool, almost with a little chill to the air. what a treat from the million degrees and thousand percent humidity lately. so audrey and i went for a nice, long stroll all the way across hartsville, downtown and then back up with a stop at meme’s yard for some cut flowers. (we went prepared with clippers in the basket) this summer i have learned that just about anything will root when put into water. this has been great for a) free plants to come and b) free natural decorating in the meantime. there are vases all over the house filled with gardenias and such waiting to pop out some roots, get a temporary pot home and then fill our yard next spring. a big old woohoo to that! i am feeling like a gardener more than ever before…maybe all along i was going about it the wrong way…trying to grow veggies. too much sweat and work goes into that. i am loving this cut and decorate in the air conditioning version of being a grower. i think that mark’s grandmother’s rena has actually rubbed off some green thumb to me in those times i jokingly get her to rub mine…secretly i also just love some grandmama hands and i don’t have any of my own my own anymore. hers count to me though. anyway, also on the walk i found this lovely cicada in perfect condition. great morning, great weather, great walk, great plants to root and a great find. and to top that off later audrey and i had the best nap i think i’ve had since before i got pregnant. this wonderfully deep sleep with detailed dreaming right on top of the covers beside my favorite girl in the world. what more can a day ask for? it’s been a whole lot of great.
I’m late on this post, but especially in this case late is better than never…
“I prayed when I had my second one that I could love it as much. And I had four and my heart kept getting more and more love. I know it’s hard for you to believe it gets even more, it never goes away either. I think they are God’s gifts to us. When you get to be my age, 78 years old, it’s just about all there is-love.” -a moment after church with Iris Rice 8.1.10 (talking about the amazing love I am filled with from having Audrey…her sharing about how it grows more and more with life, kids and grandchildren. She is a great soul and lovely woman.)
I’ll find myself wanting to please the crowd. I’ll find myself wanting to please the crowd. I’ll need you to remind me that I should obey God, I should obey God. I’ll act like I don’t have any problems. I’ll need you to show me how to share my struggles with others. I’ll want to have a lot of money so I can buy what I want. I’ll need you to teach me that my things belong to God, that my things belong to God. I’ll struggle with my looks and apperance. I’ll need you to remind me that God wonderfully made me. I’ll tend to think about myself before others. I’ll need you to teach me that the last will become first, the last will become first, the last will become first. I’ll think that I’m a lot smarter than I actually am. I’ll think that I’m a lot smarter than I actually am. I’ll need you to show me how to learn from God’s wisdom. I’ll want to avoid hard conversations. I’ll want to avoid hard conversations. I’ll need you to show me how to speak the truth in love, in love, in love. I’ll look for happiness in many different places. I’ll need you to show me that joy is found in following Christ. I’ll find myself stuck in bad habits. I’ll need you to show me the way out. I’ll need you to show me the way out. I’ll need you, I’ll need you, I’ll need you, I’ll need you, I’ll need you. I’ll need you to point me towards Christ when no one else will, to point me towards Christ when no one else will. (igniter media video…from church 8.1.10)
audrey turned 5 months on monday. woah…can i just say again how quickly it’s passing? the fourth month was the most obvious of a change with our baby girl to me. she went from a newborn to a baby…all these kind of big step changes happened.
things i love that she does right now: how she can show off already (blow raspberries, laugh, smile at people) snuggles her head into my chest especially when she’s sleepy, puts her feet in her mouth, sucks on her fingers and toes, puts everything in her mouth, tries to get anything you have, laughs and gets tickled, loves hammock time, takes good naps in her crib, still takes naps snuggling with me in bed, rolls over and scoots all over the floor somehow, plays with all her toys, wakes up happy….
today i finally printed pictures from a cd of mom’s pictures from the hospital and the first time at home with her. i went to pick them up tonight when mark got home and i have to admit that the teary-ness i’d felt earlier in the store turned into actual tears as i sat in my car looking at that tiny, precious baby and having all those memories come right back. what goes by so quickly also seems like a lifetime ago and there she was, from the first moments of life. mmmm…it’s such goodness. i am so thankful to have that time captured.
it’s been a while since i’ve last updated. so much is going on that the time to sit down and blog seems to never happen…well truth be told, the little down time ends up being used for one of my many ongoing projects, reading blogs, looking at too many fabulous things on the internet and other forms of non-productive fun. i have my finger in too many pots (is that the saying???) lately i have even looked at my crazy house and realized that i think this is what typical new mom houses look like. and i understand. i have let go of some of that for sure.
all is well though. great really. audrey is so much fun right now. she is still a little roly poly. it’s caused a little wake in our smooth sailing waters though. we were in our groove. she’d play on her little quilt-so content with her toys and in one place- and now, you lay her down and the rolling begins. which is so fun and exciting to her, but hard work! after a bit of that she is worn out and unsettled, ready to be held, propped up to sit or take a nap. i guess that’s how it goes. new tricks are a lot of work (for both of us.) today i laughed because instead of her one little baby sized quilt on the floor i had two big quilts and four little blankets all out on the floor. new house with carpet and open floor plan that i used to hate…i get it now. still don’t want one, but i get it.
this afternoon she was so intrigued by frida. while we were sitting on the couch she was talking up a storm to frida. i know to her because she was staring her right in the face. if frida moved, audrey followed. and the later after mark got home she actually got tickled and laughed out loud at her. it was the best (and the first time really getting giggly.) when frida would jump in my lap i would go ‘woof woof’ and audrey would giggle. i wanted it to last forever. we should have taken frida to take pictures yesterday…audrey was not really feeling it. even though she wasn’t fussy, nothing would make her smile. by the end she fell so asleep in my arms that when i sat her upright in a chair to try one last shot she stayed sound asleep. it was pitiful. no more, i felt too bad. so we’ll see how those turn out. we were really hoping for one of those gummy grins we love so much.
what else? today i finally got her room back together and just have a couple finishing touches to complete what i hope will satisfy a room that was planned without knowing what baby perry was. i wouldn’t take that back over any amount of design, but i haven’t settled her room yet (to me) and we are going on 5 months. should i say it again…i get why the majority of people find out the sex of the baby and can i also add, let the baby sleep in the bed with them. (to elaborate on that one…we aren’t but we take some naps there together and it is good easy sleeping for me and the baby.) motherhood will take away all prejudgement you may have had before parenthood-at least for me it has- to each their own, do what you have to do.